Day 91

So today is Day 91 in this journey and I haven't posted in 3 weeks. I've had quite the struggles lately with this change and journey and now after getting through the last week without cheating once, I'm quite grateful for the strength my Lord has given to me in order to get through. I found that as I stopped praying and asking God to help me every day with this journey, that it became increasingly harder to get through my days w/o cheating. I was still losing weight, but not as much as I should have.



I've also had struggled with a sinus infection for three weeks, which has made life very tiring. I'm very thankful for stronger antibiotics that finally took the pain away and helped me to feel a little more human by Wednesday this last week. I have still felt the need to sleep more, but I'm sure as soon as I'm done with the medicine, my body should be feeling a little more normal.



The day that I went to the doctor for my sinus infection I was also informed that a dear friend and colleague of mine lost her husband on Valentine's Day. So on top of trying to get better, I've been trying to make sure that work runs as smoothly has possible for her now that she's back to work, and had to be at work the entire week she was out. I wasn't able to get the rest that I needed because we had things that needed to be done, and should attempt to have one of us in the office at all times.



So back to my lifestyle change and the areas I've blown it in since I last blogged. Then the ending will be how great my weigh in and measurements went yesterday at Metabolic. I don't tend to cheat during the week, only on the weekends. So since I last posted we've gone through 3 weekends now and only this weekend, have I not cheated.



Valentine's day weekend, Danielle, Ross, Mackennzie and Katie came to visit. We did some wedding shopping and then after church on Saturday night the adults went to Uncle Ron's in Lincoln to go dancing. I'd done pretty good Saturday, the girls went wedding shopping and I had a coupon for a free appetizer at Red Robin, so we went there for lunch. Well I ordered within the plan except that I really love their chicken tortilla soup, so I ordered a cup of it. I remembered to have them leave the sour cream out but I forgot about the tortilla strips. So that was a little cheat. I did well the rest of the day. For supper I had put together a lasagna that Jerry put in the oven for everyone else and I threw my supper together to eat after church. The downfall was when we went dancing we all decided that we needed to go get "drunk" food. LOL! I think that Katie, Kelli & Mike were the only ones who really had more than 2 drinks, but we all thought going to Perkins would be a great idea. Only problem was they were closed by the time we got over there so we ended up going to Village Inn. I started looking at the menu and told Jerry that I was ordering something. So I did and I enjoyed the skillet and the pancakes that came with them. When I weighed in on Monday, Emily got a good laugh out of me saying that I cheated but I didn't put in on the food sheet, because it was the 4th meal for Saturday. I even did good on Sunday when we had a birthday party for Jimmy by not eating any of the cake or ice cream we had.



So the next week I'm doing all that I can to try and feel better along with getting through work. I didn't even have the energy to think about cheating until Friday night after I weighed in. Then I wanted to go to Taco Inn for supper. Jerry said, that's fine you can get a taco salad and that should fit within the plan. Kudos to my husband for thinking of the plan and how I can stay within it. I laughed and said I have no desire to eat within the plan, I want some yummy, fattening, spicy mexican food. So Jerry said that's fine, let's go get supper. So I got one of their platters that has enchiladas on it and figured I wouldn't eat it all. Well wrong, I ate the entire platter and had to push the chips that came with it away and give it to Jerry so I wouldn't eat anymore. Then I did ok through Saturday until supper. We took Jimmy out for his birthday after church. We went to Red Lobster, which in and of itself, not a bad thing because I could order within the plan. I didn't though. I did have the waitress make the salad the way I could have it, but as far as my main dish, not even close. I ate fried, scampi and alfredo shrimp. I didn't eat the pasta with the alfredo shrimp. So that was a plus. I also had the baked potato with the butter and sour cream. I didn't eat the cheddar bay biscuits though. So while the meal as a whole was probably a flop, there were things that I did to try and make it better. After that meal I came home looked at Jerry and said I need your help!! I have got to stop cheating. So I've given him permission to take things out of my hands, ask me what I'm doing and help me to stay on track until May when my first goal is set for my first set of weight loss.



So this week has been better. I've not cheated, but have also had limited food to eat. I'm starting to get tired of eating certain things and I'm trying to change up the foods I eat a little bit. I also was trying not to buy any of my food supplements until I was pretty much out of everything at home. I did that. So yesterday I went in and it was day 90 and the end of 3 months on the plan. I was really excited for my weigh in and had worn layers so that I could strip down to a t-shirt and shorts for my measurements. I'm excited to say that I've lost 35 lbs. and 24 3/4 inches since I started the plan on December 1st. I was excited to see that the 1/2 inch that I had gained in my ankle last month had gone away along with another 1/2 inch. I didn't pay much attention to where the rest of the inches have melted away from. I'm just happy that I've lost over 10 inches in the last month.



Along with that things in our marriage are also improving. Jerry and I started talking with one of our pastors and then last week we found the book called Love and Respect by Dr. Emerson Eggerichs. Danielle and Ross had gone to the conference by the same name and given by Dr. Eggerich and his wife in Pierre at the beginning of February. Danielle shared about how much a lot of the things he said made so much sense. Knowing that I've struggled our entire marriage with the respect issue, I asked Jerry if we could get the book. He agreed. We bought it and have been reading it together every night. We go through one chapter a day and work on the things that we are learning. I'm very grateful for a God who knows exactly what we need to read and when we need to read it. This book takes scripture and applies it so well. There were so many things in the way I talked to Jerry that I didn't think of as being disrespectful to him. This last week and a half has been so wonderful. We haven't had any fights, but have been able to discuss some hard stuff. We didn't meet with the pastor this last week due to scheduling conflicts, but I can say it's also the first time that I didn't feel the need to have to meet with him so that we could discuss issues that were hard to discuss w/o his being a mediator for us.



I highly recommend this book to every married couple. Even if you have a great relationship, I do believe that this book can be an eye opener to every couple. I'll try and post again next weekend. I'm also going to wait until I hit the 40 lb. board to post another picture. I hope everyone has a great week!!