Day 49

Wow, what a week it's been again this week! We started out the week with our 2 foster children. Monday and Tuesday were pretty trying on the entire family, but mostly Jerry. Monday while I went to work and the temperatures were very cold, Jerry got stuck staying home and not being able to take the little ones anywhere. By Tuesday, he was ready to pull his hair out because the huffing, whining and "no's" were getting the best of him. As I told Jessica on Wednesday evening, I couldn't breathe right for him. LOL!

So Tuesday all day was rough for Jerry and that is the day I have my weigh in and group at Metabolic. I go in and my weigh in shows I've dropped another 2 lbs. Yippee! Although, my scale was saying 4 lbs. Oh well, 2 lbs. is still good. Then the group was really good. I love all the discussion we have about things with our eating. Before I got to Metabolic I had gotten a voice mail from the caseworker, whom I haven't talked to yet and at this point I'm getting a bit upset about not hearing anything from anyone. Her message was that mom was going to court the following morning and that dad has turned up so the kids may be going home with him Wednesday after court. OK, so now we are in limbo for the upcoming 24 hours not knowing if they are going or staying. So I get through with my group and had to run over to Russ's to get eggs and water. I had called home and asked Jessica to ask Jerry nicely to start my dinner so I could eat when I got home because of the time frames that I have with eating. At this point, I think Jerry is starting to melt down and he's telling me how he can't do this anymore. It was a very hard day and he doesn't think he can keep doing foster care. I get home help the little ones clean up their room and eat dinner with Jerry. It's very obvious that he's upset with me, and I'm not really sure why, but I just steered clear of trying to say anything to upset him and thought as long as I focused on taking care of the kids that should help him calm down.

Then Jimmy starts in on how he doesn't like this and hopes they are going home Wednesday. So I spent some more time with him that night. We read and snuggled because he is really having a hard time sharing his mom with others. The following morning by 9:30 I've gotten the phone call, the kids are going home with their dad. I let the caseworker know that I was very unhappy about how this placement went because we didn't know anything that was going on, they dropped the kids off on Friday and now the call that they are going home. She apologized for how it went and asked that we not give up. That foster parents are needed too badly in the system. I said, I'm sure we won't but something needs to change in this process.

So Jerry sends them home with a transportation worker and on with life we go. I come home that night and it's so quiet in my house. Jimmy fell asleep reading his book, Jessica is hanging in her room and Jerry had taken a nap for the afternoon because his back had really been bothering him and he hadn't been getting enough sleep. We had family game night that night and enjoyed reconnecting as a family, just the four of us. We also let Jimmy know that we are still going to keep doing this, and not all little ones are going to require as much work as these did, but some will.

So we finish up the week, and Friday comes for another weigh in. It showed a 1/2 lb. and I was happy with it. I've been able to start working out again, as I was too tired to workout after last Sunday until Thursday night. Friday night after my weigh in we went and did some shopping for Danielle's wedding and got supper at Applebee's while the kids were at youth group. I had started to eat the garlic mashed potatoes that were on my plate while I was talking to Danielle on the phone and Jerry noticed, so he picked my plate up, moved it in front of him and then had the waiter take it. I'm so glad he did. He figured I was eating w/o thinking since I was talking to Danielle. I was. Then that night I felt nauseated and had a headache so bad until Saturday morning. I think it was from whatever was in the potatoes. So I don't think I'll be craving those again.

So the rest of the weekend has gone well. It's been quiet, and now Jessica might be getting a stomach bug. I hope not. We've had a round or two of it already and I don't want any more. I'll be back on to blog more later in the week. I hope you all have a wonderfully, warm week.